Thursday, January 31, 2008

"Often we fault in others what we see in ourselves."

We have heard this type of adage many times....but stop and think about it for a moment. Your spouse, your partner, your mom, your daughter/son- the things that drive us crazy about them - are they what we don't like about ourselves? So what do we do about that? When we feel like punching someone is the face because they are driving us crazy, try to think about what about myself do I see in this - how can I change this interaction.

Since being home on leave I have had some time to quiet my mind and thoughts, I have been able to slow down enough to actually start to think through my reactions and interactions with people. I am realizing benefits from this and realizing that I need to find a way to have this mental space even when I go back to work. Most of life I have been afraid of quiet, when its is quiet I have to face thoughts I don't want to face but at this old age of 35, I want to face what ever is in there and move on honey! I am tired of being bogged down with negative things and baggage, I want to travel light.

So how do I do this? Not watching entertainment news is one big step for me, not reading magazines unless they are cooking/recipe mags. Trying to watch TV that is good, not just there. Even blogging, clears my mind, as I start to write I can empty my thoughts some and make room for others....how to be more efficient at work so I can leave on time and once I get home to be here, not mentally there - maybe meditation? I will get back to you as I explore what tools I need to put in my box to help me, maybe you have suggestions?

Well, gotta go watch one of those good TV shows, The 4400 for sci-fi fans out there, it's a good one.