Pursuit.....

So I am wondering if I need to change the Title of my Blog.....I have read recently that the pursuit if happiness = unhappiness, anything pursued is out of reach...that happiness is right now, we just have to embrace it, accept it, be thankful for it. Well today I am too short to reach it.

Today I feel insignificant - I wish someone would notice me and say, my you are so brilliant that we feel that you must come and work for us and we will pay you large amounts of money to be yourself because yourself are so wonderful.

Today I have to work hard to not sink into darkness, I feel alone and so average. I wish someone longed to be with me, longed to talk to me, longed to know what I think about whatever....I wish to be adored.

I do believe that God, the Universe, whatever you call "it" - adores me but I can't tap into that today. .... possible reasons, I am sick, my sister just went back to London, I am going to be alone with my kids tonight, that I settled for the paint colour that I had and not the one I really wanted so as to save money....

anyway.....I go now to try and grow a few inches to reach that happiness that is just there.